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I haven't been on dA in a while. Used to log in several times a day, now I barely care to sign on, if at all. It had been over a week since my last visit, I think. Not sure what is wrong, it is not this site, but my interests are elsewhere at this time. I haven't been interested in art in a very long time. Apologies to all. I don't know when I will be back, if at all. I can't promise anything any more. I hope you all understand.
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Hello.  Apologies for my absence.  This has been a difficult year for me.  For all of you who have asked about me or checked in, I truly appreciate your support.  Here's what I have been/am working on:

01. Work for :iconelijahpink: and :iconangel-cross:.  Poor ElijahPink has been waiting YEARS for my part of our trade... so long he has probably forgotten.  All I can do is apologize and hope once I finish it, he will enjoy it.  If I talked with you about a project or a trade, drop me a "Note", because I have probably forgotten.  

02. Writing story ideas for a Curvy Kelli Chestbaum series.  Debating if I should do a comic, a series of short stories (obviously with illustrations!), or a combo of both.

03. In an effort to improve my drawing tablet skills, I am soliciting sketch ideas.  I will draw your idea in Black & White, using my Wacom tablet, with 5-10 minutes for each sketch.  I will draw each idea, in the order received, as time permits indefinitely.  Obviously, I won't draw anything violating dA's policies; Also, if you ask me to draw a pregnant woman in bondage it might have a bit more style than if you request a chimera piloting a helicopter.  If your idea is too ambitious (ie: draw a line of SSBBWs stuffing themselves at a buffet) I will only draw what I can within the 5-10 timelimit.

:bulletred: WARNING: These sketches will be terrible.  I am not comfortable using my tablet for drawing, which is the entire point of this exercise.  So do not expect any of these sketches to look as accomplished as any of the line art in my gallery.  I am just hoping this might be a fun way to get some practice in, and thank my Watchers during my spell of inactivity.  You have been warned!!

Again, thanks for still checking in and supporting my gallery.  The truth is dA is a fun place for me to come and enjoy and combine art and my fetishes.  When it stops being fun, I tend to withdraw.  This is what has been happening over the past 2 years.  It feels like a job sometimes.  A job with no pay.  I am trying hard to keep this fun for me, and make it interesting and still create work people want to see and art I believe in.  But this can be challenging as a procrastinator and my own worst critic.  Thanks for bearing with me and tolerating my extended breaks.  And if you're brave enough, toss me your weirdest sketch idea.  Because, trust me, I need the practice!!  :)

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I had been watching "Under the Dome": excited by the premiere but less enthused with each new episode.  Last week's opening minutes ensured I would stop watching when they introduced a new character inside the dome by explaining she had been trapped under the dome the entire time but was just hiding!!!???  Lame.  Even if, after I stopped watching, the character turned out to be a dream or hallucination: LAME!!

I had not read the book the show is based on, so since I will not be watching anymore, i decided to spoil myself and read a synopsis of the novel on Wikipedia to find out what caused the dome and why.  The answer is horribly predictable and disapointing.  

If I had actually watched the show and discovered the cause of the dome after weeks (seasons?) of watching, I would've truly been let down.  I would advise anyone who has also become bored with the show  to absolutely stop wasting your time with it anymore.  Especially if you do not know the cause of the dome.  I guarantee you will be let down.  

I hate to dump on a show like this, especially when it features actors I really enjoy watching.  There is some nice chemistry between many of the roles, and the entire concept of the show/book is intriguing (which is a hallmark of Stephen King's writing), but the ending (from the summary I read) was disappointing.  Am I wrong?  For those who are watching or for those who have read the book: what do you think?  

Maybe I should stop watching bad TV and spend more time on my artwork.

FYI: dA has removed my drawing "Punished and Humiliated Pledge" for "explicit pornography".  For those familiar with my work, this was the picture featuring a BBW pledge bound and gagged, with dildoes tied and hanging from her helpless body.  At this time I do not have plans to edit and repost the picture.  I have also taken this opportunity to move some of my work into "Storage" for various reasons.  In the next few weeks, I will probably try to move more deviations into "Storage", again, for a variety of reasons.

I hope everyone is having a great summer.
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  • Reading: Kim Deitch's "Boulevard of Broken Dreams
  • Watching: "Master Chef"
  • Drinking: Strawberry-Banana Smoothie
Hi All,

Been having some personal issues of late, and have not been doing much art. áI also haven't been keeping up with my dA Favs & Watches, and I have several hundred piled up in my messages. áI simply do not have the time to write a personal "Thank You" to each deviant, so I am extending my sincerest appreciation for your support here and now: "Thank you so much, it is truly appreciated!" áAs always, if you leave me a Note or comment I will respond, but for now I cannot reply to every Fav and Watch. áHope everyone understands; Nothing personal, just slowly losing my mind, horribly depressed, work, life, etc.

Take care, hopefully I will find some "art time" soon (part of why I am going crazy). áThanks!!
I am very excited to say I will be doing upcoming illustrations for ~GlassDaemon's new "Vovin" series; Check out her first two installments below:

The Vovin: Prologue
The Vovin: Part One
The Vovin: Part Two
The Vovin: Part Three

If you are not familiar with ~GlassDaemon's writing you should definitely visit her gallery and take a look at her amazing stories!  And if you are familiar with my art and like what I typically draw then you absolutely must check out Part One of this story.  Then you will understand why I am so excited to be drawing pictures to accompany this incredible work.  Visit her here: :iconglassdaemon:
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A huge thank you to :iconmri3yter: for generously gifting me a 12-month dA membership!!  I am humbled and overjoyed by this generosity and kindness.  One of the most gratifying things about this is mri3yter's an amazing photographer who takes some of the most beautiful, arresting images I have seen (fetish and non-fetish work)... Just a few examples from my Faves:

Lulu.2 by MrI3yter     Lulu.1 by MrI3yter     Muse.L reclining 2 by MrI3yter

Again, my heart felt thanks, you have truly rendered me speechless.  

Update: 12/26/2012:
I just learned I won Arsene Daubrecq's coloring contest!  :iconarsenedaubrecq:  I am thrilled and honored.  Part of the first place prize was a 3-month dA membership; Thank you Arsene for awarding me with such a wonderful prize!  There were many great entries in his contest, so I am quite proud to be acknowledged with such a generous gift.  Thank you Arsene!!

To mri3yter, Arsene, and all my dA friends, Happy New Year's!!
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The winner of my contest (view here: renderedspeechless.deviantart.… is :iconjustinbieberisgay:!  Congrats to the winner!

For the record, I only had 13 entries in the contest.  Every entry was accepted, not a single entry was disqualified.  Each entry name with their "5 elements" was recorded on a slip of paper, and placed in a box to be pulled for my blind drawing.  A big thank you to all who participated.  I will be holding more contests in the coming months, and while I cannot say too much about the details now, every person who entered this contest will be very happy they did in a few months.  Again, thank you for your support, and congrats to "justinbieberisgay"!
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12/22/2012: This contest is officially closed.  No more entries will be accepted.

If you like my art or appreciate my drawing style, I have a unique contest for you.

Simply write me a "Note" on deviantART with the subject line "Contest".  List 5 "elements" you would like to see in a drawing by me.  The winner will win a drawing by me of my :star:interpretation:star: of their 5 "elements".

For example, an appropriate entry might read:
01. Woman
02. Huge breasts
03. Ballgagged
04. Hogtied
05. Bare feet

An ineligible entry might look like this:
01. Hot redhead with huge tits
02. Tied up tight with rope and handcuffs
03. Red ball gag with drool everywhere
04. Hogtied with a rope pulling her pony tail to her ankles
05. Maybe she's barefoot with dirty socks laying around her

This list could possibly be disqualified because the entrant has grouped too many elements together.  An "element" should only describe the most important, basic aspect of what you would like to see in a drawing.  I imagine most "elements" would be one or two words, in adjective/noun or adverb/verb combinations.  That said, I know this may seem confusing to some, so I am ready to offer a fairly wide margin of error in the entries.

That's it.  Obviously it is a bit risky: there is no guarantee you will get the drawing you are imagining, but if you select the right "elements" I might come very close to creating the drawing you want.  This is hopefully the fun part of the contest for you and me.  And now some rules:

-I must receive your entry by the end of Friday, December 21, 2012 (as dated by dA, so time zones should not be an issue).
-I will not answer any questions about this contest.
-Only one entry per dA account.
-Any entry I deem ineligible will be disqualified.  I will not notify disqualified entrants.
-I will draw a random winner from all eligible entries on Saturday Dec. 22, 2012.  I can only promise the drawing will be done fairly and impartially.  I will announce the winner in this journal entry and send the deviant notification via dA "Note".
-There is nothing further the winner will need to do to "claim" their prize.
-The finished drawing will not be shared on my dA account, and I will make every effort to complete the winning drawing before February 1, 2013.  A file of the drawing will be emailed to the winner unless other arrangements are requested.
-The finished drawing is only guaranteed to feature all 5 "elements" in the drawing.  There is no guarantee it will satisfy the entrant.  I make no guarantees regarding the drawing's quality, media, style, or dimensions.  
-That said, I will make every effort to respect the winning entry's list and create a suitable drawing with no other intention but to satisfy the winner's implied tastes.

Please note that the finished artwork will not be shared with anyone but the winner, who is free to display or share the work as they see fit.  Therefore, I will be far more lenient regarding subject matter.  The only two things I will absolutely NOT draw are:
:bulletred:Minors or adults portraying minors (ie: No school girl outfits, no adult actresses who portray minors, no popular Manga characters, etc.) andů
:bulletred:Actual violence (ie: :bulletgreen:Woman held at knifepoint or positioned in guillotine acceptable, :bulletred:woman being stabbed in neck or decapitated unacceptable).

:star:Whew!  That was a lot to read, I know.  Just trying to cover all the bases so no one gets disappointed.  This contest isn't for everyone, but if you want to try and win a free drawing from me, this is your chance.  Good luck and have fun!  Again, the contest closes Friday, December 21, and the winner will be contacted and announced in this journal entry on Saturday, December 22!
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  • Listening to: Liz Phair
  • Drinking: Coke Zero

Sorry for the lack of art lately.  I am still around, but haven't been inspired at all.  Haven't been very inspired for about a year or so.  There are certainly lots of things I want to do, and I have been given many great ideas and requests from my friends, but I guess I have been going through a phase where nothing I do seems good enough.  Not looking for pity or compliments, just letting you know where my head has been.

I have no clue why, but ever since I opened this account, I have been looking forward to 175,000 pageviews.  In my mind, for some bizarre reason, this was the goal number.  It seemed far away but attainable.  Like so many other milestone numbers it has come and gone and I haven't created a piece of art to commemorate the occassion or thank all of you for making it happen.  So, thank you to everyone who checks out my gallery, big thanks to my Watchers, and special gratitude to everyone who shares comments and opinions!  

Part of the reason I don't draw much is because I don't get blocks of time to spend drawing any more... it is more like half an hour here, 10 minutes there, etc. I don't want to use this gallery to upload sketches or unfinished work.  I am thinking of a creating a blog on Google to share quick sketches, and give myself a more casual platform to show what I am working on, post weird ideas, feature older art work, plus try my hand at other things I might not be comfortable using this dA account for, like photo manips, writing/fiction, D.I.D. screen caps, old mainstream scans, etc.  If anyone has an experience, good or bad using Blogspot (or similar sites), I'd love to hear it.

One last thing: dA's chat rooms won't open for me (they haven't worked for me in quite some time).  I'm running Mac OS 10.6.8 & Safari 5.1.7.  If anyone has any advice to fix this, I'd appreciate the help.

Thanks as always.  I will try to work on some new art soon!
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Hi.  Still working on the same pieces for the same people.  I suck.  I took a bit of a break from dA for about a week and a half.  I will admit I am getting a bit burned out with dA.  Part of the problem (most of the problem) is that I have a hard time saying "No", and I have a horrible desire to want to please everyone.  I make so many promises, I wind up pleasing no one, then I get depressed, feel like a failure, and repeat the pattern over and over.  

So here's what I am going to do.  I am going to finish my piece for my friend ElijahPink, which by now, will be soooo anti-climatic all I can do at this point is apologize in advance.  Next I will work on more drawings for my friend Arsene featuring his Laura Mischief O.C.  Then I am going to draw and post a lot of BBW hazing stuff.  My goal, as it has been for the past three years, is to create a BBW hazing comic series, following the cruel and humiliating hazing of a group of plump women pledging an elite college sorority.  

Part of me foolishly thinks if I write this it will happen.  We'll see.  Anyway, you've been warned.  If you think my last BBW hazing picture was cruel (thumbnail below), you ain't seen nothin' yet!!


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Someone generously gave me a premium membership: Whomever you are, a heartfelt thank-you, I am grateful and appreciate your kindness.  I have not had any time to create new art, but will do my best to come up with some new work soon.  Again, thank you to the anonymous friend for the gift!  :)
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Hi guys,

Still responding to comments, and Fav'ing but simply no time to create new art.  Managed to post some new scans of older drawings, and haven't forgotten about the trades I owe to my friends.  Thanks for everyone's patience, and if I don't write another journal entry, I wish all of you a safe holiday season!!
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  • Drinking: Sierra Mist
Hi guys,  Still working on a piece for ElijahPink which should (hopefully) be finished mid-week or next weekend.  Also sketching up ideas for a request for my friend Arsene; both pieces are LONG overdue and I thank ElijahPink and Arsene for their patience and understanding.  

I am very close to 1,000 Watchers which is a pretty cool little milestone for me.  I appreciate the support and wish to thank everyone who has ever left me a comment (good or bad), offered advice, or been a friend to me here.  It is appreciated.  I am not very good at creating celebratory drawings but if I find the time I will try to come up with something.
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I experimented with Final Cut's settings and figured out something that yielded a decent looking video clip at a manageable file size.  I am sure I can get it to look better but for now it was what I wanted.  If anyone does have any export advice for FCE I would still be grateful to hear it.  Thank you!
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  • Listening to: Beatles
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Just a quick note to let everyone know I am still around, just highly unmotivated and artistically frustrated at the moment.  It has been a few months since my last update, but I hope to get some new work up soon.  I have been doing a lot of sketching lately and am (as always) working on my pipe-dream BBW hazing comic.  

I may go ahead and post some quick sketches and archive stuff just for the heck of it.  Also, if you haven't checked out our new group "Degradation Society" I invite you to visit our page, explore our galleries and join us!!  Thanks for your support and patience; I will try to have some new art up very shortly!!

Have all of you seen this new deviation by the incredible ElijahPink?
Inspired by my friend Arsene's original character Laura Mischief, the kinky thief gets her come-uppance thanks to ElijahPink!  Yards of rope and a monster gag keep Ms. Mischief very unhappy, and her perfect boobies are bound painfully tight as she gets a stern spanking from a reoccurring vixen who definitely seems to know her way around a knot!  Check out this super hot picture and leave a comment to let these guys know how awesome their work is.
ElijahPink: :iconelijahpink:   and Arsene: :iconarsenedaubrecq:
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Hi everyone,

I just created a new dA group, "Degradation-Society", to showcase work featuring women in humiliating bondage.  I invite everyone to Watch our group, become a member, contribute or recommend work for inclusion in our galleries.  I hope you will join me!

D. Merit

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Hey all,

My latest poll was just a silly endeavor brought on as I sat researching some info for a paper I was preparing for work.  I got frustrated trying to write my ideas, and took a dA break (as I often do) and decided to create the current poll.  It is completely silly and I hope it encourages all of you to come up with your own bizarro fetish fantasies.  Depending on the results and comments, who knows?  One or two of the selections may actually wind up being drawn.

I know how frustrating it is when you have a very specific or underserved fetish or preference... it feels like everyone finds what they want but you.  I felt that way, years ago, as I searched for images of BBWs in bondage.  I didn't find what I wanted so I drew it and ultimately decided to share it here with all of you.  I know not everyone can write or draw or photograph their weird fetishes, so I try to draw requests when I can.   For me, the stranger the better.  There is nothing I like more than hearing about people's unique tastes and weird fetishes or hearing about something new.  I have nothing but respect for everyone who identifies and accepts their own kinky turn-on's... it makes the real world and our fantasy worlds that much more enjoyable and interesting.  I wish I had the time to draw every single request that comes my way, and believe me, I have received some pretty wild ones.  If you have a moment, vote in my new poll, or leave a comment here.  Tell us what your ultimate unsung fetish fantasy is.
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I know I should be drawing but I am not in the mood to draw.  I am bored.  So I started a dA chat room.  Come join me if you are available to chat, currently 10PM EST.  The room is devoted to art, bondage, DiD, gags, and commercial bondage video discussion but any and all topics welcomed.  If you are bored, I invite you to join me!!  Drawing will resume tomorrow!…
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Hi guys,

Just signed on and was surprised to discover an anonymous deviant had generously given me a 3-month premium membership.  Whomever you are, thank you very much!  dA premium memberships are awesome, and I am extremely grateful for the kind gift.  Thank you, thank you, thank you!!  :)

I know I haven't posted much new work lately but that should be changing soon.  Things I am either working on, or will be tackling in the next few weeks: a comic for my friend Arsene, my half of a trade with ElijahPink (a very daunting task, given that his piece was incredible), the gag FLASH game I have promised for the past 3 months, a nifty 100K Thank You piece, a huge backlog of sketches and finished pieces featuring some pretty extreme breast bondage, and a few surprises.  As soon as I have some new work to share I will post it as it is finished, rather than save it for one big update.  

Take care,  D. Merit
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